It has been 9 days, couples hours, few minutes and probably seconds that I am in good shape during my 21 years old days. I know this is time to make clear decision from mature thinking and clear judgments and it is time to GROW up. I started to think like a grown woman and make my own decision. Unfortunately, I don’t know if my decision is right or it ends up in best possible way. Perhaps that is what everyone is doing. They simply figure out the best possible choices and lay down every important detail so that it is clear crystal what is what in front of them.
I’ve been thinking for few days and I made my decision. Yet I ask some more people just to recollect more thoughts I could use later. Alhamdulillah so far, so good. I begin to think this is amazing but I am not happy about what I’ve become in some way. It’s the way I treated some. I become a monster in order to protect my privacy (of which is not good). There, I can see that is my weakness. I am not brave enough to compete in real world out there. It’s important to admit it myself then I can change it for better. Maybe I can figure how to be more of selflessness at least some.
